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Day 01 Distance
I've been wondering lately, was it really a good choice to leave New York for a year and be distant with your close friends? or was it a bad choice of me leaving? I don't really know I think it was a bad idea that i left New York to go to Florida, why is it a bad choice? Well let me tell you this, I've been very close to most of my close friends ( well that's what I think) but now they seem very very distant apart from them. I don't know how to explain the distance but it sure feels like were thousand of miles apart and it would never seem to be any closer. Anything that I do now my friends will say things about what I did was wrong or what I shouldn't be doing. But if they can do it, why can't I? How is it different if I do the same thing as they're? Are they a hypocrite? Well I don't know if they're or not. Heres a acting gay; Whats the big deal? if they are doing it to me and I can't do the same back? yea I do it too much, I admit it but when it comes to them they act like they never did such thing before and start blaming example(fine I'm alright with that).
Whenever I think about being distant from my friends, I become a bit moody. no homo. Seriously talking here, When I was in Florida I thought of everything, like the memories of the time that we all hangout and laugh about anything, but instead of that everyone seems to changed so much like I don't even know them anymore, like another person. Yes I know changing can be a good and a bad thing but changing to become very distant from them isn't what I picture while i was at Florida, I thought it would be more like were still so close, that we can still talk about anything and hangout like we used to. Since everything has changed, there's nothing I can do. If ONLY I can go back in time and not leaving New York, so nothing like this would happen. (who am I to kid, everyone changes. there's nothing I can do about it)
Wait on second thought I might be the one changing, I might be the one who left New York and changed everything/everyone around me. But I truly wish everything would go back to normal.
Or maybe this been destined/fate for me, a path for me to overcome because I'm too Naive?
Well I don't think anyone going to read this but hey its Xanga its a weblog for you to say whatever you want 
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